"IN A PERFECT WORLD..."/ JERZEE MONET "MOST HIGH"

TAKEN FROM "IN A PERFECT WORLD..."

"I missed my appointment for my community service...DAMN! I was up this morning, watching "Max & Ruby"! I love those damn bunnies! I ate some cereal and watched "Moesha". WHO IN THE HELL NAMES THEIR CHILD MOESHA??? And why did she have that damn baby hair ON TOP of some tracks??? SMDH! I don't feel like doing anything. I don't feel like getting in the shower, doing hair, getting dressed all nice just to be let down over and over. I always go out on Tuesdays to go job hunting and pay any fines i have. Shit, but I never have any money. I had to BEG for "I Am...Sasha Fierce"! AND I'm taking that damn Pink album back for my money! At least I'll have something to give to my officer! On days like this, I don't feel like talking, calling back job after job asking them have they reviewed my shit, going in for a interview and not getting the job, I hate that I don't have the 50.00 dollars I owe! I am not looking forward to Thanksgiving. I ain't really looking forward to Christmas. I was kinda looking to "Black Friday" but I am BROKE! I recall last year I was working as a manager at McDoanld's, my own apartment, car, everything! I'm so broke, I might have to ask Big Lisa on the corner for some damn money. I have some lint and buttons in my damn pockets. I wish my bullshit job would call me back, but that would be too nice and too good of them. I wish I could just stop worrying about it but I think about it every single day. I owe this. I owe that. I have this appointment. That appointment. It's bullshit. I'm tired of living with bullshit. I decided that at the end of December, if i still don't have a "job", I'm going back to school. YES! I am going to get my education! Shit, maybe then somebody will hire me. I hate K Mart even though I was wrong for stealing. BUT I COULDN'T HELP IT! It felt so good! I was sticking it to the man and pimping the system! If I would have known it would cost me my house, my car, both my damn jobs and some of my self respect, then I would have thought twice..."



Have you ever felt so bad, you just had random thought after random thought?!? That's me today! I will have page long vents on my upcoming blog and like I stated before, I hold nothing back. AND it gets WORST but because this is a music blog, I will give me a cheer up song. This is a jam by Jerzee Monet that ALWAYS lifts my spurts. I play it when I feel down. The lyrics to this record makes me recall my childhood and makes me feel good to get out the hood...alive. I seen people shot and stabbed in front of me, I don't even scream anymore. I have days where I vent to my friends but I am in no state of mind to hear what they are getting for Christmas, or doing for Thanksgiving, or 'Black Friday". I am a good friend but really now I don't care about my OWN holidays. This joint makes me give thanks to the "most high" for giving me life, no matter how complicated or difficult. I will feel better once I decided what direction I want my life to go in. I'm 20, so I'm still young! I just want to be happy like Mary J so this record makes me feel "most high"! Where is Jerzee Monet?!? Her album "Love & War" was the hotness!!!